No time to catch my breath

God is in the business of making the impossible possible.

God is in the business of making the impossible possible.

It was just as well I had scheduled in some time to reflect at the end of my Grand Tour of theological colleges.  48 hours after returning home I was knocking on the door of a vicarage to start my second meeting with an Examining Chaplain.
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Get your priorities right

An icon illustrating a parent and child

An icon illustrating a parent and child (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

In my current period of life, more than ever before, I am walking through life wondering what God is trying to tell or teach me.  This past week was a particularly unexpected and painful experience.  Instead of starting the next stage of my ordination exploration I was watching my son struggle for breath in my local hospital. Continue reading

Leaving the waiting room

English: Buses of in , Edinburgh, alongside Pr...

English: Buses of in , Edinburgh, alongside Princes Mall (right), as viewed from . (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Buses. You wait ages for 1, then 3 turn up all at once.

This past week has seen a trilogy of events occur in quick succession.

It started with a meeting with a potential Spiritual Director. My Vocations Chaplain had recommended that I sought one out. They are people with whom you can explore matters of faith; people to help you wrestle with trying to understand what God is trying to say to you or in reconciling a world view with a Biblical view of life. Continue reading

A blessing in disguise?

Hunting for Heffalumps in the 100 Acre Wood can be a wonderful distraction!

Hunting for Heffalumps in the 100 Acre Wood can be a wonderful distraction!

Life is full of little inconveniences.  The sort of thing that, when you really think about it, don’t matter that much.

You’ve brewed your cup of tea but when you open the fridge to get the milk you discover that there isn’t any.  You just miss a bus and have to wait 10 minutes for the next, knowing that in reality you could miss that one too and still get to work in time.  You’ve returned from holiday and are ready to go full steam ahead with your work but now your colleagues are on holiday.

I’ve started back at work after a week away with my family.  It was a week of exploring the world through a child’s eyes and seeing the smiles on their faces. They are my little reminder of how to approach life and my faith, with the simplicity of a child (Luke 18:15-17). Continue reading

Lead me not into temptation

C.S. Lewis's Screwtape Letters

Screwtape advised Wormword not to tempt his patient too quickly (C.S. Lewis’s Screwtape Letters).

Perhaps I shouldn’t have said in my last post I’m Still Here! that I was reasonably at peace with waiting for the DDO. No sooner had I published the post that I had a strong sense of being attacked spiritually. Temptations increased. Waiting for the DDO began to feel torturous.

I should have seen that coming.

There is one thing I know for sure, and it is something that many of us have experienced or witnessed. When God is at work, when He is about to do something significant, something that will bring Him glory, Satan will do what he can do to stop it. Continue reading

I’m still here!

Celebrations at Wells Cathedral as priests and deacons are ordained.

Celebrations at Wells Cathedral as priests and deacons are ordained.

This week I finally cracked.  It has been a month of waiting, a month of silence.

After meeting with a Vocations Chaplain my details were passed on to the Diocesan Director of Ordinands (DDO).  It would be their job to delve even deeper to discern whether God is indeed calling me towards ordination. But since my meeting a month ago I haven’t heard anything, which was fine, to a point! Continue reading

Too busy to listen?

A photo of the Cullins on the Isle of Skye to illustrate: Are you willing to give up the summit and turn back if the conditions aren't right?

Are you willing to give up the summit and turn back if the conditions aren’t right?

I’ve been thinking a lot about Mary and Martha recently (Luke 10:38-42). Martha was too focused on preparing for a meal with Jesus that she was missing out on enjoying spending time with Him. As I await a call from the DDO I am aware that I too have become somewhat too focused on the ordination process and have been failing to simply spend time listening to God. Continue reading

Taking Stock – Part 2: The Vocations Chaplain Experience

Patiently waiting to move on

Patiently waiting to move on

In this the second of a two part post I am looking at my experience of meeting with a Vocations Chaplain, having looked at the preceding stages in Part 1.

In the Anglican Diocese I find myself living within those exploring ordination are asked to first meet with their vicar before meeting with a Vocations Chaplain if the vicar feels there is a reason to explore.

As with the vicar and those met at later stages, the Vocations Chaplain (different titles are used for such people, even within a single diocese) is tasked with the job of discerning whether God is indeed calling a person towards ordination. This may take several meetings but if a calling is sensed the person is passed onto a Diocesan Director of Ordinands, or DDO for short. The process continues along similar lines before a person meets with a local bishop and a Bishops Advisory Panel (often simply known as a BAP). Continue reading